I am not making this up …
The Arabic site for Aljazeera had this poll on its front page.
Which is better for you:
Dictatorships
Foreign meddling
That’s it! Their polls are usually poorly written … but this is a new low. Why are Arabs faced with only these two options … rot under oppressive dictatorships, or be enslaved by this corrupt world order? How about living in a free society away from foreign interference … Is that too much to ask for?
We are nothing but ideas … ideas that our parents came up with sometime ago. They shaped us to be as close to what they thought of originally as possible . We are ideas that can think on their own. We can evolve into new ideas (sometimes better, but most of the time worse).
However, We need a context/discourse to be understood, and (more importantly) to have a meaning. This context is our prison … it limits how we understand ourselves and how we define our insignificant existence.
There are few “ideas” out there that do not need a context to exist. Ideas that cannot be understood, and mean absolutely nothing. They are significant just because they exist. They are significant just because you cannot understand them. This might be what I am evolving into.
I started the day by listening to some Massive Attack … nothing like trip hop (aka acid rap) to set the mood of the day. The sound is unique … It is dark and sad … with a very subtle hint of anger. It is the creative and elegant manifestation of fears, doubts and insecurities.
About two weeks ago, I passed my PhD candidacy exam. My oral defense (according to the exam committee) was perfect. However, one comment was made that troubled me. I was told that I did not conceptualize the topic to the fullest. What troubled me about this … was the fact that I knew it … I knew that I was too focused on the details. Even when I tried to change this … I could not. I was just too tangled up with the trivial details of who did what … when and where … why and how.
I have been thinking a lot lately about the conceptualization of reality … Reducing everything to its fundamental truth. Life would be easier to understand … relationships would be easier to build … characters would be easier to maintain.
My inability to conceptualize important events in my life led me to where I am today- alone with half a million thoughts racing through my head. The details of everything that ever happened to me don’t want to go away … they are locked up in my mind … and decaying very slowly. If only I can see the truth behind everything that happened.
